Rough night

    I had a rough night.  I am supposed to take in over 2000 calories each day, but I don't have an appetite.  I got up last night and thought I was hungry.  I ate a piece of cake because I thought at least I could get a few more calories in.  That was a big mistake. I have to admit that when it comes to nausea, I am a big wimp.  I can take a lot of pain, but when it comes to being sick I am not too good at it.  To make matters worse, Shonna isn't feeling good either.  In fact, she is in the emergency room right now.
    I am going today to get the chemo pump disconnected.  I will take chemo again in about 10 days.  I appreciate your prayers more than you could ever know.  I went back to my surgeon yesterday and she said, "You do know that everyone in this community is praying for you don't you?"  I do know that and not only are prayers going up for me in this community, but literally prayers are going up for me around the world.  Because of your prayers, God is giving me peace beyond anything that I every knew was possible.  I get down sometimes, but by the mercies of God I have not stayed down.  I don't lay awake at night worrying about what the days ahead hold. 
    I continually ask God to heal my body.  The Bible says "We have not because we ask not."  If I don't receive healing, it won't be because I haven't asked.  It will simply be because God had bigger plans. 

Luke